Ether Continent
I
Absurdity provokes the highest response. Somehow it creates a detachment for an innermost certainty about things to some exterior event that becomes put in motion by a gathering of circumstance. The point of detachment becomes the ruse as a sort of ‘absurdist tolerence’ arises to compensate for the lack of mental control function when given to an irrational situation. Why then the necessity for these situations as they generate such a high degree of emotional and physical distress? Suppose these events whether self inflicted or random are the markers for systemic radical change both into the nature and substance of interaction. Interaction in the sense of some shifting of boundaries in a social sphere in the direction of inverse and external motivations.
II
Entropy, the agitate state of conflict assumes the struggle of a return to some new unforeseen stability. Psychic restructuring then becomes a process of conflict creation and renewal- the renewal being ever more enchanting because of the wave of certainty and relief it brings.
There is a tight and distinguishable ordering of the active and passive roles in psychological change. General dynamic system rules do apply where the opposite and the negative join in some magnetic dance with the similar and positive. That is not to say one is necessarily bad, but only different. Each new combination generates more possibilities plus a disintegration of combination boundaries or an expansion of potential choices as opposed to the immediate and apparent possibilities. This expansion somewhat dissolves the philosophical dialectic because it suggests an anthropomorphic approach where more than a binary duality exists. The nature of the worldview view shifts from a singular myopic vision to one of expansiveness. But care must be taken not to develop and outlook of cynicism or the notion that systems behave in a predictable fashion. Systems operate on the same quantum laws of self creation- the optimal result as determined by the instigator. Cynicism can only limit outcome to those negative results predicted ahead of time.
III
One must acknowledge this untoward glance. Or is it solitude that they want more than anything. Drops of blood on the cosmic web. Dark matter floating in the room like the smell of bodies.
IV
Only one more day. Keep repeating like the hum of a motor. A servo turning spinning on overdrive, wheels on the road. These shrouds pulled back. Awake see everything happening at once. How do you look at people the same again” anyone. It’s all there written on the face.
Post hypnotic state trance time brevity of a night. The pressure intensifies everyone disbands. How to resolve the new reality into some clear mental state. But it is the truth. What everyone conceals from the other and what drives subculture movements into mass consciousness. The delicate balance of repression and excess.
The fascination with either repression or excess moves the cultural balance on a pendulum swing.
From one to the other. But each coexists simultaneously.
Cultural movement
Underground
How long has this been a viable alternative?
Why has the alternative become necessity?
What percentage of the population is interested in such pursuits?
Do psychological mutations manifest in the same way as genetic mutations?
Does the fact that America is not wholly an imperialist society prevent it from collapse?
Why is it that the repressive doctrinarians are the imperialists?
VI
Selection / motivation / reaction--- components of actualization
Actualization / reduction / revision---- state change (manifestation)
Manifestation / integration / probabilities---beginning of circular mutation cycle where probabilities incur branch chain motivations.
The ‘multiplicity of probabilities’ leads to random similarities and to other probabilities which reflect back to prior manifestations and integrations of psychic change. The repetition of probability sets leads to a sort of macro level manifestation which encompasses unifies prior circular psychic occurrences. This is the foundation of a relational structure used for future assessment of the viability and necessity of new manifestation/ integration/ probability cycles.
VII
Ether floated inches above water which was slightly rippled from a soft wind. Wavelengths and the results of variety formed patterns and reflected her disjointed, mutating, splitting, and finally fragmented.
Two fragmented selves-- polarities .
Giving away, passive as a controlling mechanism- stabilizer/equalizing balance.
Active / passive---neutrality
VIII
Roles played, theater.
Repeated. Duplications of consciousness. Organic inquiry.
Where comes resolution? Does repetition create consciousness? Repetition of similar circumstances yields alternative solutions- alternative solutions move towards control. Evolution—progress—purification..
IX
Triadic=conflict
Primary pair+interference element (triadic conflict point)
Triadic conflict point isolated as control variable for empirical process development.
Quadratic=neutrality, cancellation
Selection criteria
Nonlinear supposition
Point distance
Duality weight
How does weighted duality function as both opposition & attractor?
Time signature
Sequencing of communication cues & movements.
X
The ingratiated hustler sat with her ass stuck to the stool vinyl at a dry bar haunted by the ghost spawn of a sailors mistake made in an oriental flophouse circa 1975.
‘sold it for what?’ the hustler rasped through a profound distaste. It was her diseased disinterest that shocked Ether. The evidence of betrayal written like brail on the swollen pores of her face.
‘it’s not the only thing going’ ether responded, slightly mystified at the hustlers bemused smoke piling out into the open air. But in the end it was really nothing.
‘don’t fuck with me’ the hustler said as she twisted slightly to disengage.
‘the point is that we really have no conjecture for the sad state of things. Ordinarily protocol demands such responses both cash and otherwise for appropriate fecal dances, but if you are willing to engage the charade and lay prone for the time being, things will tend to work themselves out in a rather random progression.’
‘what a fucking treat that was.’ (The bar ghost) ‘Just a minute ago i was flying through space all scattered and blistered with the acid of each staring hardup that walks up to the bar. Still you don’t have any idea about protocol. You haven’t been ordained.’
Ether shuddered, feeling rather flippant for even remotely considering an engagement with the micro orgy currently flashing across her synaptic soup.
XI
To most it wasn’t an improvement. Get washed out by the attrition factor in the alignment of psychological stress due to change management-- and implied cost reductions in labor become evident. Best to not work.
12
Actuation simulacra
Voyages sitting. Fallen rocks who initially baited then switched. Points started to emerge after the fact but offered no consolation.
Focal areas expanded and contracted as ornamental positions evolved in a predisposed organic order. Predictable systems combined to form unique iterations indistinguishable from the original variants.
Carcass flayed on an open field of Astroturf meticulously prepared. Cut, spread and organized on a polar quadrant system. The field, a perfect square, lined with walls covered in a lime plastic upholstery (for easy cleaning) Bitter halogen lamps spotlighted the various organs which were arranged according to biological function and subdivided by process. Each set connected with a ribbon of vein. Next to each grouping, propped vertically by a thin section of cartilage, was a card written in latin and describing the groups function within the overall system.
13
Ordinarily ether would not have been bothered by the nights chain of events had it not been for false pretense.
Some rooms had been illuminated to reveal the inner motivations of the participants. Needless, as everything moved forward on a carefully planned linear sequence. All possible variations had been scrutinized and quantified as part of the mechanics of the situation. Options were put in place to give the illusion of self-determination.
13a
Fiber optic embryonic discharge in a chlorinated bath for the culture of unknown origin. Effects realized played out on speakers vibrating the thin noises of disputable cultures too sentimental to be taken seriously. 102 degrees plus or minus.
Engram reuptake inhibitor.
14
Ordered state disaster- relational algebra
Evidence did suggest some occurrence as the four undressed and situated themselves on the bed in chronological order. C began a discussion of breasts with a as if a complimentary introduction to the event was of primary importance. A and C knee to knee on the bed. D moving in position to remove A from the petulant show of augmentation.
Divide and conquer.
C laid her head on the starched hotel pillow. Commented how D must always have porn on the monitor. As if the mimetic function and indicators flashing through the cathodes added energy to the experience. Tangible light described life’s scars in various ways on her skin. She was willing in a dull soft way. She seemed relaxed in a passive stupor and blinded to what was unfolding next to her.
A and D wrestled quietly on the other side of the bed. Even then Ether wanted to stop and watch the show. She knew how A had given so much mental airtime to a most peculiar obsession about D. Washing his hands repeatedly, Pontius Pilot looked as forlorn as did Ether to the sacrifice. But knowing the end would surely come about and be repeated as finitely as days passing toward death gave some reassurance.
A plane of incandescent lights glittered through the window, the building itself rather phallic in its shape. Cylindrical. Glass. Renovated to espouse a more vague and unsophisticated contemporary flair. Nonsense. Yet Ether reveled in such distractions as an addition to the already indifferent surreal nature of her involvement in the process.
Reluctantly sense and propriety were allowed to prevail and Ether continued the order of business ahead.
Ether rolled slowly to the edge of the bed and moved into the air.
The wings of Icarus moved in vain, the pull of gravity was irresistible. Ether considered her decision meticulously. Someone had told her to begin screaming at this subtle provocation. Safe words had no effect. Everything was in place and the air was too thick to draw into her lungs. The colored fibers of the bedding intersected with binary efficiency and solutions to former problems crystallized as her focal point glided down towards the immediate solution. A mindless formation of memory sped past at increasing speed as she considered the fortuitous meeting that resulted in the present lapse of consciousness.
Each one seemed more pungent than the last but only because predictability increased. Often Ether wished for a substitution of her own consciousness with another more radical and different approach. There would be no doubt as to the ordinance of mental states—shifting into placid fluidity. Moving rippling like gelatin. The thought of supplanting consciousness made her shiver and become rigid as she landed deliberately on the floor. Skin spreading distended one part of her body at a time relinquishing control to the polyester carpeting. The next. Until her head rolled into silence. The physics of impact complete.
What struck ether most clearly was the lack of any sound, which alone was deafening. The impulse to move was still a latent biochemical reaction. Solutions. Domestic sabotage occupied the occipital lobe. Computational mechanisms. Movement was a vacuum state.
15
Snakes floated in the air. Vigilant, waiting for nothing in particular as snakes often do. Nausea overtook ether’s awareness. Painful convulsions sprayed gastric fluid like blood from a severed artery, splattering various bodies and limbs.
The gentle rocking was distant at first. Constant. Awaiting the reprise, the hands released. Ether stumbled forward, attempting to catch herself on several vomit drenched bodies.
An acid light illuminated the hallway like a tanning bed.
A force pulled ether, feet sliding on the ground, particles of grit scraping progress to a room of empty school desks. Open binder with pages of equations. Shapes and numbers dissolved into physical patterns indicating potential tangential histories futures and present time variants.
Ether slid off a body and struck the floor. The room mutated with disturbed hornets. Activity and sound.
Again, Ether fell into the sheer white fabric covering the doorway, rolled onto a changing language wrapped in her own tapestry of pathos. A corpse floating above the funeral pyre. Gas flames engendered with the mock atmosphere of a reconfigured restaurant. Vague memories burned with a quiet hiss. Ether resolved movement with a positive systems check for breathing and heart rate.
Anointed with body fluids they moved discreetly past to avoid association. Ether was frozen with grief and the known trajectory.
Snow fell like ashes from an eruption and settled floating randomly on her breath as she walked. The procession led from an open car door in an archaic landscape. Heredity victimized in a place of ritual worship. Genetic similarities force proximity. The fog emphasized the ancient nature of the endeavor and somehow provoked the certainty of her lineage. Architecture responded in time with need and utilitarian formality. Depression angles rejected the confluence of embryos floating in their own dire repression. The room formed a circle around nothing—yet it had a profound significance as she traversed the stone border. Post and lentil doorways opened along the wall.
Disassociative syndrome.
Parallel nomadic structures.
