whenever i sit i want to sleep

the long incoherent days of sleepwalking
in & out
waking suddenly at the futility when it strikes
stinging like a stilletto woundsoftly praying
for the coagulationof meaning
but it never moves towardsresolutionfollow it like a current
words failingfallingolden
failingsshe stands over him,
light notatingvinyl with lines unsheathed satyrs abysmal
the velvet ropefailing
the injury failing
to healdead grounded ungrounded
reminded by those little circumstances
going unnoticed until they build wallsaroundsacred territory
god knows the pretense
god so lostto the weeping holy virgin a shoedifferent on each foot
Cinderella never found by her prince
dropped the glass slipper cutherwrist as it slipped from the grip
nothing ends wellturning away denial
the animals stare in rapt funeral amazement
again the funeral never came but the days do
eachone faced like an alcoholic faces addiction
one mroere time to get it rightone more time to get it right
but the y pass faster faster
The carriage never came Disney was a freemasonsacred hidden ritualthe treatments hallucinations

war
abuse
fakery
resolution
fornicationrecreationconfession

you just waitthe bell rings
the king goes mad drops his wweapons
the dog salivates
the moon shifts to black as it will do
the jews light candles write the name of god with scratches on her back
crescentmoons with bitemarks at least the dental records are available
this astrology forced upon me marks changing seasons
harvesting nothing in return for nothing

I sit & again the futility never comes
The sleep never comes
She never comes